I have been pondering the nature of friendship recently, probably because I have been watching Doctor Who again. Having moved a fair few times since my mid-teens, I have had to make new friends fairly often, and have had friendships that seemed deep and intense at the time, but turned out to be ethereal and fleeting in the grand scheme of things.
I was discussing childhood friendships with my husband, as he has not really kept in touch with any of his childhood friends, and I have. I miss my friends when I leave, but thanks to the wonder of modern technology, have not lost really touch with them. In some cases I have re-discovered some old friendships, which has been very nice, as I love to hear how well the lives of people I like have turned out.
I thought about the people I considered good friends through my childhood and teens, and if I am honest, although I love them all dearly, I don’t think there was ever one person I felt was a “best friend”. I never really felt completely part of one group (as I have mentioned in older posts), or attached to one person above all others.
Since moving far, far away I have had a couple of old friends tell me how much they admired me as a teen, which was both flattering and surprising, as it came from people I admired and never thought would be truly worthy of being considered a friend of.
I was thinking, if these people admired me and I was unaware, maybe there are other friends out there who know me better than I thought.
I have a bit of a Hollywood ideal of what a “best friend” should be, so I wonder, would anyone know these things about me, or am I dreaming…
What is my favourite colour?
Who was my “first love”?
What is my favourite sort of music?
What is my favourite film of all time?
What is the best thing to buy me for Christmas?
What is my favourite alcoholic drink?
What is the most embarrassing thing I have ever done?
I don’t think I could answer all these questions correctly for any of my old friends and definitely not for any new ones yet, but although I am sad for not having that sort of sisterly closeness with one person, I am glad to have the wonderful friends I do have, and hope to make many more.